I am so lost in life. Can I just transform into a Pokémon?

I am definitely not perfect. I am very insecure most times. Especially on how I look. I always envy those girls who are absolutely flawless. I am always thinking "why can't I look like them?". I have way too many scars on my arms and legs from all the rashes that I've gotten ever since I was 11. Which explains why I am always wearing jeans, pants, long skirts, and anything that covers up my skin. They are horrible. And because of this, who would love someone with ugly scars on their skin?

We all carry scars that we have to deal with. I have plenty of scars, which happens to be on the outside, but I also have scars that happen to be invisible. In fact, I bet many others carry invisible scars. The scar of not being loved. The scar of verbal and mental abuse. The scar of abandonment. The scar of being taunted endlessly on a playground. The scar of a heartbreak.

These invisible scars speak to a private struggle that very few of us dare to voice.

I'm feeling quite emotional today. What's new.

 Why did my lecturer think that putting this in the quiz is a good idea

Can't believe my Consumer's Lifestyle studies teacher failed me for her class! She gave me a five out of 30 marks. A FIVE. 

This is worse than my Communication Skills teacher. My Comm Skills teacher was a horrible person and I hated her class, but she gave me an A for her class last semester which wasn't bad at all but seriously, a five?!

I did put in effort in her class!!! For our first lesson with her, she made us do some drawings and make something out of clay. I MADE A DINOSAUR. Yes, a freaking T-Rex.

I made a really nice T-Rex! It was very detailed! Even m friends were in awe (not showing off but serrriiiooouuussslllyyy) And guess what she gave me? An F.

 

Krispy Kreme is finally in Singapore! Their only outlet is at Tangs Orchard. The queue was so longggggggg. But out of all the flavours I liked the original glazed one.

run forrest run!

 

Since I didn't go to school, I went to watch one of my favourite movies. Every time I watch this I'll cry at the last part where Jenny dies.

 Bought a whole bunch of Fruit Loops and my cat's enjoying himself playing with the boxes.

 

Thank God It's Friday! School ends at 12 every Friday, which is soooo good. Unless we have some project to finish. We had a submission due today and as you can see from the picture below, there's our designed portfolios done. Mine was pretty much like a cat house. Really.

Today's one of those days which I've decided that I don't want to go to school.

I mean, it takes more than an hour to just reach my school from home. Boon Lay to Buona Vista to Bishan to Yio Chu Kang. I HATE ITTTTT.

And there's only a 2 hour lesson today. So not worth my time.

Although I do know that I cannot keep doing this. Semester two just started last week, and I already skipped school twice.

First on Friday, I had no mood to go to school because c'mon man, I was gonna meet Boys Like Girls. Why the heck would I want to go to school.

And then there's today.

I've officially lost motivation for school.

 

Went with Aisya for the musical! I still think the RENT and Chicago musical were better. But still! I enjoyed the play.

 

OMFG. This is the best snack I've EVER tasted in my life. Rotela brought it to work today and I couldn't stop eating it!

Boy Dramas

Can boys stop liking me. I don't like any unnecessary dramas. Wtf?

Dean and Farhan fought today at work because of me. AND I WAS THE ONE WHO GOT INTO TROUBLE? Helloooooo I only see them both as my friends/colleagues. The three of us got called to Shubh's office to "talk things out". Childish as fk and a waste of my time omg. 

Apparently both of the boys thought I like them because I have been flirty with them? HOW IS BEING NICE = FLIRTY?!

That's it. I am so done with having male friends.

 

Omg! The amount of letters I received for Farewell Assembly today! Thank you friendssssss. I'm gonna miss secondary school so much :(

 

Grumpy face because I couldn't sleep. Must the the fan's fault... I miss having an air-conditioner in my room. Woke up at 6am and I couldn't go back to sleep. WHY WHY WHYYYYYYYYY.

 

Are you sick of my face yet?

 

Polaroids on my wall!

 Been almost a month since I got my braces removed! I'm not used to smiling with teeth... but here it is :)

 

After 3 years! I FINALLY GOT MY BRACES REMOVED! I have to wear this stupid retainer though. Honestly it hurts more than braces...

 

I just want to say that

I

have not

studied for my

Prelim exams

 

Syafinaz, me, and Sufiah. And Yuan Feng at the back!

 

Alone at home again. Ordered my younger brother to go to GP to buy for me saline and Oreo Chocolate Bubble Tea since my parched throat is having a penchant for it. I'm done with my SS essay! There's English homework due tomorrow though. I don't feel like doing it. Lazeeeeeee.

 

Got my braces changed! As in, the rubber. It's red now. I chose red because of National Day is next month. Forgot to take a picture with my teeth showing instead ahhhhhhhhhhhh.

 

Drew this for Kenia today :) It's MBLAQ! So excited to hand this over to her.

Went for Kak Kikin's engagement today! Super happy for her.

I want to be engaged by 22! Then get married by 24. I don't want to get married at an old age and give birth late. Although, when people marry at a young age, there will be misunderstandings and frequent arguments. That's what I know. Based on my TV facts. I had fun with my cousins at the engagement. We joked a lot, as usual.

 

Haziq's birthday today. No picture of him. Just a few pics of my face instead :P

 

Went to the Harry Potter exhibition at ArtScience Museum with the family! IT WAS SO AMAZING. I hope to be able to go to the one in London someday. That's the real deal.

Here are some of the stuff that I bought!

 

Me being the awesome sister that I am. I drew both my brothers for their birthday cards!

 New favourite past time: Going on Omegle and trolling people. Here's a screenshot of today's highlight:

 

Ok but how cute is my super mario backpack.

 Wtffff. Bryan is no longer in Boys Like Girls...

This sucks... I really can't explain a better word to explain how I'm feeling right now... Crushed? Angry? Shocked? Sad? These words are so negative but that's just how things are at this moment. :(